Denouement - [Worth]

Part 3 of,

what never happened and what never ended.

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    "What do you think would happen if I didn't push you away?"

I'm really curious about all the possibilities. And now, it feels like this is the only chance I can ask him.

    "I don't know. We're probably going to mess it up and broke up anyway."

He's somewhat right. The road has never been smooth for us, even back then. On our happiest moment, there's always something that ruined it. I guess that's how the universe giving a sign. Told us that the relationship would never work.

    "You're right. It has been a bumpy road since the beginning. There's always something, always."

I can't help but feel sad, knowing that our story has always been a losing game. It was never meant to last.

This time, it's his turn to ask me a question.

    "What about you? What do you think would happen if I decided to stay?"

    "I don't know what would happen. But I do know that I'll keep trying to push you away."

    "You only did that because you thought it was the best for me. Now, look where we stand. Look what I've become."

I think his words were meant to hurt me. To make me regret every choice I've made. I know, that I'm at fault too. That somehow, I took part in breaking him. If only he knows, that I hate myself because of it. If only he knows, how much I blame myself for it. But he doesn't. And he shouldn't.

I know I stayed quiet for too long because he starts speaking again.

    "But Rose, what if you put aside the thought of what's best for me. What if you listened to what you want. What if you can be selfish for once. Then what would you do, if I stayed?"

It's the first time since we meet, that he calls me by that name. It still feels right.

This time, I say it all. The things that I actually want.

    "I would love you right. I would love you the way you deserve. Therefore, you'll never question your worth ever again."

He only stares at me, not a single word came from his lips.

At that moment, I know what I should've done back then. 

Sadly, I have no control over time.