Denouement - [Separate]

Part 5 of,

 what never happened and what never ended.

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The rain has stopped. Now all that's left is a bunch of clouds in the night sky. The street lamp has been turned on. The light makes the puddle of water on the road looks beautiful.

This weather makes me want to order yet another cup of coffee.

The conversation we had was great, but now it's over. He started to pack his things and prepare to leave, but then stopped as he saw me sitting still on my chair.  

    "You weren't leaving?"

I smiled as I answer. Even though I knew he was about to leave, I couldn't help but keep on smiling because his presence today makes me happier than ever.

    "I think I'll stay for a bit longer."

    "Then I'll stay with you, so I can walk you home later."

    "You should go. I can spend the whole night here. You wouldn't want to wait."

I say something the same as I said say back then. 

'You should go'. 

Only this time, it feels less depressing and less sad. Maybe that's because I've already felt the pain of letting go, that's why it doesn't affect me much now.

    "I wouldn't mind waiting, and you know it."

    "Yeah, but the burden is on me."

I laughed when I said that. It surprised me that I feel so happy today. As if the last 2 years of despair meant nothing for me. As if it never happened, now that he's here. Of course, that's not true, but I want to pretend just for today.

He knew, there's no use in arguing with me. So he put his hand in the air as a sign that he has lost.  

    "Alright, I'll be leaving now. Take care."

But I stopped him before he can even walk away. 

    "Daniel. We would keep in touch, right?"

Daniel. The name of a person that cast a spell on me. The name that I used to call a lot, out loud. The name of the person that used to be mine. Funny, how most of the sentence I think about, is now written in form of past tense.

I didn't expect it at all, but he suddenly takes my hand and hold it tightly. The way I used to.

    "We would. I promise that to you. After everything, it's the least I can do to mend your broken heart."

Then he left.

I thought I would need a cup of coffee to get through this night. But now I know I don't. I leave not long after him and went in a different direction.

The cold wind hit my face as I walked down this busy street. I didn't feel sad this time because we've finally had our peace.